Kent County teen overcomes suicidal thoughts, shares mental health journey

Jessica Wong

EAST GRAND RAPIDS, Mich. — Over the past year we have continued to bring you stories around mental health, something that has been tested and challenged for all of us in one way or another during the pandemic. READ MORE: Data shows increased need for mental health services in Michigan […]

EAST GRAND RAPIDS, Mich. — Over the past year we have continued to bring you stories around mental health, something that has been tested and challenged for all of us in one way or another during the pandemic.

READ MORE: Data shows increased need for mental health services in Michigan

This time we want to focus the conversation around teens.

Studies show that 46% of parents say their teen has shown signs of new or worsening mental health since the pandemic started.

WATCH: Forest View Hospital offers tips for parents

It’s an important conversation to have and sometimes hard for families but now its more important than ever.

Photo by Troy VanWingen

SHARING HIS STORY

Nic Reuben, 18, is a senior at East Grand Rapids High School who knows what it is like to struggle with mental health at a young age.

“I’m not some guy in a suit on a TEDx talk, and a microphone, you know, saying I’m like 50 now and i’m like ‘oh, back 30 years ago, I started like, no, this was like two months ago and not only am I still going through it now, like I’m still making decisions, I’m struggling and I’m sometimes failing, and that’s okay,” Reuben said.

“I’ve learned about like acceptance and vulnerability and those are very important, understanding that life, there’s going to be bad spots in your life and that’s a part of life so trying to protect yourself from not feeling bad, will make you not feel at all.”

Back in February Nic wanted to his life to end.

“I think that a lot of depressed people don’t necessarily feel sad it’s just that they feel numb and that was what it was like for me,” he said.

Today he stands here with a powerful message to share.

“I think a lot of people, when they get asked that question, the number one thing they say is you’re not alone you know and the thing for me was, even though I heard that a million times, and even saying that, you know, other people do struggle, you still feel alone, because everybody hides it,” Reuben tells our Deanna Falzone.

“So I would say, you may feel alone. but in reality, almost everybody around you struggling with something, and understanding that people hide it.”

HIS JOURNEY STARTED YEARS AGO:

“It was a lot of just, ‘oh, maybe I’m not as good as I thought I was at all of this stuff’ and then, you know, as well as coming from one elementary school, the middle school has three all combined so I felt like i didn’t know anybody and I was just kind of like a fish out of water essentially,” he said.

Once he got into high school, the pressure only intensified.

“I have to step it up, I have to get these grades, there’s so many expectations. and I just couldn’t keep up with that stuff so that depression has been with me for a long time and for the longest time, I didn’t really think it was depression. I thought I was just you know, losing interest, as most teenagers do with old stuff like, oh, as a kid back then I probably don’t find it fun anymore,” Reuben said.

When Nic finally realized it was something more he said he just ignored it because coming to terms with having depression was hard.

“I had this saying that I lived life on autopilot I kind of just did what I had to do to get through the day, you know, went to school did my classes go home play games, go to sleep, do the same thing, repeat and that was not a good way to live my life but it’s what I did for almost seven years,” Reuben said.

Then the pandemic hit, life changed. Nic’s mom was also diagnosed with cancer during that time and his depression only got worse.

Nic had already been to the emergency room twice for suicidal thoughts and was seeing a psychiatrist.

Just two month ago, Nic was ready for his life to end. His parents ended up having him involuntarily admitted to Pine Rest Christian Mental Health Services.

“This was a very hard for me that day, or that Friday night, I still remember it,” he said.

CHANGES HE HADN’T SEEN IN YEARS:

Nic continued to put in the hard work in and out of therapy to get where he is today.

“There were so many times where us as parents felt just abandoned by any hope and to see how Nic has taken the lessons that he’s learned and turn that into something that he can not only embrace, but he can use to not and prove himself but others around him. for me, it’s been so inspiring,” said Nic’s father Terence Reuben.

It’s why they felt called to open up and share.

“I wish I could have done more to recognize the things that weren’t looking right I mean, we kind of did, but we may be not set up to, you know, he’s going through teenage but or, he’s into that, that stubborn, you know, mid-teenage year, without realizing that, you know, perhaps this is too much of a coincidence for one thing to build upon the other,” he said.

Nic’s story isn’t uncommon.

Suicide statistic CDC

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The Centers for Disease and Prevention says between April and October of 2020, emergency room’s saw a rise in visits from kids with mental health needs.

1 in 4 young adults contemplated suicide during the pandemic

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In fact, suicide is the second leading cause of death in youth ages 10-24 and over the past year, 1in 4 young adults have contemplated suicide during the pandemic.

“I think it’s more so given the parents the confidence to say like, alright, I’m going to jump in and have this conversation, because the fear really is, what if my child tells me they’re suicidal?,” said Elizza LeJune, LMSW Licensed Social Worker with Pine Rest.

“A lot of times, it is us who are uncomfortable. it’s like, well, what are you going to tell me? If I start this conversation up? right? like, what if, what am I gonna be blamed for? is it my fault? am I not giving you nothing to do? Do you think I mean, like, no one wants that spotlight back on them and I think that this is really the area to take away our egos, right, like I’m coming in to help you. and I’m not perfect myself,” she said.

“I feel like we’re closer than we’ve ever been ever in our relationship and I think a lot of that is just because of not only what I’ve done to help myself, but what they’ve done as well, because it’s not a one sided thing. they’ve been working their butts off to help me as well,” Nic said.

“My message to parents is to spend enough time with your children to truly recognize the signs, the symptoms, and every little thing that you see, be open to talk about it,” Terence said.

SIGNS TO WATCH OUT FOR:

Teen depression signs to watch out for

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Some of the signs that your teen might be contemplating suicide can include:

-Emotional pain, distress, anger

-Significant changes in mood or behavior like becoming very irritable

– Withdrawing or isolating from activities that once brought them joy

-Also keep in mind that depression might look different in teens than adults, teens may experience irritable mood rather than sadness

If you or someone is in need of help, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline anytime at 800-273-8255.

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